A period of Rupture

Dear Ones,

As life goes on, we collect pebbles, breadcrumbs, or even signposts that may tell us where it is that we are going, both individually and collectively. I believe we put all these pebbles into a clear bag, consciously or not, and look into the bag once in a while. At times, those pebbles look like pebbles; at other times, when they resurface, they look like jewels shining with meaning.

You may understand what it is that I am trying to describe; of course, this ‘pebble metaphor’ is not innocent and I am now offering some context.

Right around the middle of November 2021, while working with a friend, I came to look into the Four Living Creatures that are mentioned, among other places, in the Book of Ezekiel and in the Book of Revelation. They are an Ox, an Eagle, a Lion and a Man, often winged, and they are sometimes accompanied by a white stag.

I know these creatures from reading the Grail story when they appear to the knights Bors, Galahad, Perceval and Perceval’s sister as they all venture into the forest. The crew suddenly comes across a white stag and follows the white stag and the Four Living Creatures into a chapel. A mystical ceremony then takes place, where the stag, transported by the Four Living Creatures, ascends through the ceiling of the chapel. I am posting an excerpt of the book (in French) I read back in the fall of 2019–not so much for the words, but for the energy that exudes from such a magical ceremony.

I also know these Four Living Creatures well because they appear on the tarot card The Wheel of Fortune (major arcana # 10); each of them is winged and they are studying a book. In the last major arcana card, #21, The World, they also appear, surrounding a young woman who seems to be dancing, but only their faces. Perhaps a sign of maturation.

On January 1 and January 2, 2020, in my tarot practice, I picked the Wheel of Fortune. On January 1, out of three cards, it came in the first place; on January 2, it came in the second place, right behind the Judgment card (major arcana #20); a card repeating itself two days in a row, especially for the first two days of a year, is sure to qualify as a pebble; yet it doesn’t mean it’s a diamond. Perhaps a diamond in becoming.

In mid-November, despite the fact that the Wheel of Fortune pick of January 1 & 2 came back to mind, I wasn’t drawn to reviewing the notes that I took. I only went back to the Grail story. In the past two days, these Four Living Creatures made a discreet comeback, through a discussion I was having with another friend. And this time, for whatever mystical reason, I went back to the notes I took early January 2020.

The feeling was different, from a consciousness perspective, and I could sense that this period covering 2020 – 2021 signaled a Rupture. A very clear Rupture with what happened prior and possibly a doorway, or a portal.

I had another pebble in my bag, since May of 2021; a metallic brown BMW that passed us on the road and positioned itself right in front of us. Its license plate being RUPTURE. You can imagine that such a license plate didn’t go unnoticed and I placed it near the top of my bag of pebbles, awaiting further meaning.

Interestingly, what I feel about these past two years, is that they have been squashed. Often times, when think back, I have to ask myself, ‘did it happen in 2020 or in 2021?’ and have to review other events of either year to bring answers to my questioning.

Does that mean we ‘forgot to live’ in one of these years or is it because the past is becoming blurry?

I am left wondering about what might happen next, in this new World of ours, where the Four Living Creatures may be playing another role; perhaps a more conspicuous role.

Galahad greeted by angels

Pages 748-749 of the Grail Cycle II

Ils suivirent donc le cerf et les quatre lions jusqu’à une vallée où ils aperçurent, à la lisière d’un petit bois, une chapelle où un vieux prêtre se préparait à célébrer la messe. Le cerf y entra, puis les quatre lions. Les compagnons mirent pied à terre et les imitèrent, curieux de savoir ce qu’ils allaient faire. Or, au moment de l’offertoire, il leur sembla que le cerf se changeait en homme et prenait place devant l’autel sur un siège magnifique, tandis que les fauves, eux, se métamorphosaient l’un en homme, l’autre en aigle, le troisième en bœuf. Seul le quatrième conservait son aspect de lion. Mais à tous les quatre avaient poussé des ailes qui leur auraient permis de voler dans les airs. Et, de fait, la messe allait s’achever quand ils s’emparèrent du siège sur lequel était assis le cerf et, le soulevant, l’emportèrent à travers une verrière sans briser celle-ci ni l’endommager. Alors une voix retentit qui disait : « Voilà de quelle manière le Fils de Dieu entra dans le sein de la Vierge Marie. »

Les trois compagnons et la jeune fille se jetèrent face contre terre car la voix avait suscité une telle explosion de lumière et de sons qu’ils avaient cru voir la chapelle s’écrouler. Lorsqu’ils revinrent à eux, le prêtre était en train d’ôter ses ornements sacerdotaux. Ils s’approchèrent de lui, lui contèrent ce qu’ils avaient vu et lui demandèrent s’il pouvait leur en donner l’explication. « Ah ! seigneurs ! » s’écria le vieux prêtre, « Soyez les bienvenus ! A ce que vous me dites, je vois que vous êtes du nombre des vrais chevaliers qui mèneront à bonne fin la quête du saint Graal après en avoir souffert les peines et les dangers. Vous êtes de ceux à qui seront révélés les mystères et vous venez d’en voir une partie car le cerf blanc qui s’est changé en homme est l’image de Notre Seigneur qui, revêtu d’un corps terrestre, devient un homme céleste après avoir triomphé de la mort. Voilà pourquoi il apparaît sous l’aspect d’un cerf immaculé car le cerf se renouvelle incessamment, perdant chaque année ses bois qu’il recouvre l’année suivante. Quant aux lions qui le gardent, ils sont les évangélistes chargés de répandre son message d’amour et de vie. Or, si nombre de chevaliers ont aperçu le Cerf Blanc entouré de ses quatre lions, aucun jusqu’à présent n’avait été témoin de leur métamorphose. Enfin sachez encore que désormais plus personne n’en pourra plus avoir la vision. »

About new desert

Nurturing the Gift of Seeking is about a spiritual "destination," a journey within, a new beginning, that eventually takes us where we are meant to arrive. Some call it Home, yet I am not sure what Home means, and where it is. Enjoy the journey, dear Ones! On this journey, what matters, first and foremost, is our seeking spirit. And the seed of perseverance--or faith, if you will. Happy journey, dear fellow Sisters and Brothers!
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